OH, YOU THOUGHT I WAS KIDDING?

you most likely...

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 06:43:46 GMT

...didnt go to the last show, but you should definetly go to this one!!!

SUNDAY JULY 10TH
CAFE REVOLUCION (512 el paso st.)
8 PM / 8 DOLLARS
ALL AGES!!!

JUSTICE (lockin out records)

MENTAL (boston / lockin out records)

IRON AGE (austin / next level records)

LIVIN (san antonio / next level records)

BITTER END (san antonio / next level records)

ACCEPT THE BLAME

LOOK OUT

GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO!

surf wax america????

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 09:12:09 GMT

The Sea is foaming like a bottle of beer
The wave is comin' but I ain't got no fear
I'm waxin' down so that I'll go real fast
I'm waxin' down because it's really a blast
I'm goin' surfin' cuz I don't like your face
I'm bailin' out because I hate the race
of Ratts that run Round and Round in the maze
I'm goin' surfin', I'm goin' surfin'

You take your car to work
I'll take my board
And when you're out of fuel
I'm still afloat

My buddies and the hunnies all come along
They seem invincible as they surf along
The sea is rollin' like a thousand pound keg
We're goin' surfin', we're goin' surfin'
All along the undertow is strengthening its hold
I never thought it'd come to this
Now I can never go home

All along the undertow is stregthenng its hold
I never thought it'd come to this
Now I can never go home

You take your car to work
I'll take my board
And when you'r out of fuel
I'm still afloat

LET'S GO!!!!!!!

concrete surfin' anyone??

whitey neiborhoods scare me so do crackers!!!

whoa...

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 05:02:23 GMT

what is this place?? don't know...does anyone really? don't know why im posting but have a feeling i won't stop? sucks!! BOO LINDSAY!! just joking...i know you'll see this eventually!! YEAH MAN!

"...they say distance makes the heart grow fonder. but this time, it just made me hate you more..."

and...

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 01:26:35 GMT

another song...wrote with the quickness...still in revision mode but good enough!!

life sentence (cause i've always been bad in the subject)

stumbling over words and they won't let out
if i keep it in longer im gonna freak out
there's something you should know but don't know what to say
so i'll second-guess some more and i'll stay away

i can only blame myself for where im at
just like everything in life i blew my chance
i'll take this lesson learned with some fucking grace
so the next time around i'll be fucking safe

didn't try as hard as i fuckin' should've
for a life sentence i'll dwell on "would'ves" and "could'ves"
so don't take this wrong i think you're totally rad
and whatever you do just know i got your back

i found the real reason for high school....

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 00:05:37 GMT

to write rad songs!!!

16 going on 30 (for girls who like to pose hard)

quit geekin' out on me all i'm doing is chillin'
you need to quit actin' like we're not livin'
when the only thing's in life are to rock out and skate
you're frontin' on us cause your life's so fuckin' fake

nobody's lookin your way and you're bummin' out
so make like the poser you are and break-out
don't need you around to start some shit
with your uncool bullshit and underage fits

you're dressin' to impress the "boy of your dreams"
but i see your bogus face when you're around me
in everyone's business like you've got a clue
but that heart on your sleeve is so un(fuckin')true

you pose so mature around everyone else
but when shit hit's the fan that person's on the shelf
so either be cool or act your age
but if you're gonna be that kid...
GET OUT OF MY FACE!!

FOR JUSTIN*

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 03:23:12 GMT

hey man hopefully i talk to you before you see this...if not...i know what's going on and you know i love you!! you've been there for me through thick and thin...through heartbreak and love, whether it be mine or yours, and everything in between...and now it's my turn...me and you for life...i better be the first person you call...
* = not the dashboard confessional song!!

distance and meaning

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 02:43:53 GMT

And like that heart that got in the way
I'll become the lost cause
The child of burden and rage
Like the distance in your touch
Like the years we burned down
I heard that phone call
The hesitation, the ackward silence
I felt everything in those seconds
Splinters of sentence and heartless advice
Nothing's changed but these days entwined

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 01:27:59 GMT

schools been in for a week and it fucking sucks. i had to write a song about it...here's to all who think school(people/teachers/classes) suck!!...

untitled(for now)

the story's told
the truth unfolds
im fighting myself to keep from growing cold
in these halls where only the "rich" survive
and being fashionable is "the fuckin life"
im sick of staring into these common eyes
i wish these people would go fuckin die

i'll stay patient and keep my cool
as long as my mind's right i can make it through
but all this bullshit means nothing to me
as soon as im out for good
i'll feel fuckin free
but this shit's not ending soon enough
razor to wrist?
it doesn't seem that tough

the thought of nose to ledge
and my feet on some heads
with the raddest dudes* around
is filling my head
40 hours of this shit is way too much
one minute more and i'll need a fuckin crutch
5 days wasted in matter of time
once the weekend hits
"the streets is mine(herms on his social status after he get's his car)"
* = justin,joey,tyler,herms

here's another one for being stuck at home and having the worst time ever

untiled too(for now)

blood in my face
and tears in my eyes
it's how i feel when im stuck in my mind
there's so much there
and i don't want to go back
but i can't help it when im in this trap
of artificial air and artificial light
what a great way to waste your life

im sitting inside
and going insane
im not out LIVIN'
i feel fuckin lame
need to go to a show
or go out and skate
let 7 plies and stagedives choose my fate
if im hangin' with the boys
i don't care how late

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 20:33:45 GMT

is it wrong to want to walk away when everyday of your life looks like today and today looks like a rotting lifeless gray? i don't know where things went wrong with me...but i feel like i've becom a timid shadow fo the person i've always wanted to be. and i've been thinking about my past today...thinking of all those times i was afraid...and all those times that i felt worthless and ashamed. i know, i thought i was strong. i said i would never change...but that burning house left me an empty frame...and no longer can i decay...NO LONGER CAN I KEEP MY HEART LOCKED AWAY. have you ever felt like you are wasting your whole life searching for something you can't find? there's been so much talk of so many slashed up wrists...but we're much too young to be dwelling on thoughts like this. so scrape your heart up from the bottom of the barrel. keep your faith in the path that's growing narrow. kill the doubt inside your head. we overcome. we push ahead.

i've waited until now for the right time to tell you

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 23:20:28 GMT

"..and she won't leave his mind tonight."

"the latest from saddle creek..."

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 22:47:41 GMT

first day i've slept at home since summer school ended(thursday) and im already bored. i've been at justin's this whole time, trying to spend as much time with joey before he left(last night)...well it sucks that joey's on his way to florida but what can you do. i have 2weeks left of summer and im trying not to spend too much time doing absolutly nothing...like im doing right now.

yo fans of (thrashy/skatecore?/rock and roll) look for LIVIN'..."don't need the props cause' they've all been givin. to put it in one word, it's simple...WE'RE LIVIN'"

check this out...totally about us...MODERN LIFE IS WAR - BY THE SEA...
we were young, numb, and violent all at once
we were always smashing glass but it was never enough to make us feel OK
are we normal boys
is this the normal way
weve been dragging dead weight across midwest towns
killing our times with our frowns
alone in the crowd four years down feeling torn beaten down
alone in the crowd four years down our hearts were beating to this sound
me and you
we never got much sleep those nights
there was too much turmoil too deep inside
lost in the dark without our pride
there was a light at the end of that tunnel but we chose to shield our eyes
could it be
are we seeing clearly for the very first time
weve been to the edge and we know what its like to want to die
and thats something we wont glorify
well leave those miserable times behind
how far can i go
im rising from the depths of my own hell
i dont need another tragic tale
i need the strength to walk the other way
i found conviction in my ever changing mind
i grew up tied down and bleeding on the inside
but i know i was a victim of my own device
and i want to live to see a brand new life

my love my way

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 19:56:19 GMT

"down the old staircase,im walking out the door. i feel lost here tonight, everything has changed since that summer before. stumbling forward. im glancing back. theres no one in the window begging me to come back. the streetlights are burning, but im not yet ready for this day to be done, cause i always come up short. im always lusting for something more and so i push right into the night harder and harder until my heart beats just right. across downtown and over the tracks, exhaustion finally taking hold. down to the place i love where nobody knows. old photographs much too late at night. i dream of times i wish i could leave behind and i always wake up ugly and dissatisfied. ive gotta change my mind. ive gotta change my life
get down to the root of the problem, cure my misdirection cause all the laughs die at closing time and i lie awake wondering why im an all or nothing kid and why ive been feeling like nothing all of the time. where do i go? am i on my own?"

so you think you can tell heaven from hell?...

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 00:45:41 GMT

"how i wish, how i wish you were here. we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. running over the same old ground, but how we found the same old fears, wish you were here"

im addicted

FUCK IT...

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 00:08:19 GMT

like omg it's been like so long since i wrote in this journal, i've just been so busy with myspace i havent had time to think or even breathe...OMG OMG OMG!!...LAME!!

yo so im giving in to writing this...that's what happens with a little peer pressure(celeste) and a whole lotta bored!! i've got nothing to say...sike actually i have a oh so much to write but im almost sure that i won't be of any importance. well here goes...joey came back and we all(the crew)have hung out so much. herms and i have hung out for the past 3 weeks straight. everyday minus the last three or so. FIRST ROUND KNOCKOUT'S ::cough:: better than your band ::cough:: last show was COOL MANG. drama here and there. i got married. my girl on the side is 3 months pregnant. haha that song is tight. i really did get married though(refer to picture up top). dkl;safkdhagdkjas;kdhsf;alkj;skdfjakjfk;ad fuckin bored of this already fkdhafkhdajkfhlajdafkl;dahfdaj;kfda;kfdja i slit my throat, the last time i spoke was a "thanks for everything" not a "hope you choke". you think i give a fuck about your life? take my advice and fall onto a knife. khfdkajfdkasjf;dkjafkldsj still bored and being silly hajdafkdjajkhdakjfd;........

HEY YO I JUST REMEMBERED...
TOMMORROW AT O.R.'s
BONES BRIGADE(SKATECORE ROCK AND ROLL....GREAT)
DANNY GLOVER (SA TOWNS BEST PUNK/CORE/ROCK AND ROLL)(JUSTINSANE(FRKO)IS SPITTIN ON THA MIC. BAD BRAINS STYLE...YOU KNOW IT'S GONNA BE GOOD)
oh exnay on the LIE.CHEAT.STEAL...we're not playing...WACK.
7:00pm
$$$???
ROCK AND ROLL!!

P.S. I DID IT...CHILLIN WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO?
P.S.S. ...i got an idea...answer your phone/call back sometime...hmm??? haha

YO DUECE NIGGAS

...catching up would be amazing right now...

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 14:59:13 GMT

woo woo!! it's too early to be up right now but i am and i don't know why? well i have been here in a while, huh? damn these past few days have been cool i suppose, shall we take a day at a time?...
thursday - school ends, summer begins, i go to a party see some pretty cool people but at the same time see some pretty shady shit p.s. i really hope you guys aren't together or talking or something if so i woulda love to hold it down, ha!! p.s.s. being tipsy but not as bad as everyone else is amuzing in so many different aspects.
friday - hungg with my boys, even though there's a little "beef" here and there. p.s. squash that shit, hating on each other is fuckin cake!! i can't wait till we hang out again...LAKE, ANYONE?
saturday - stayed home!! had the urge to leave cause i figured my brain would kill me but it wasn't as bad as i thought!! p.s. sure am!! but keepsake doesnt do it for me, try usher's "burn" haha!!
sunday - here's the beauty of summer. on a day that your mom would usually bitch about being out 'till 3...she doesn't. this day was probably the most pleasing out of this weekend, i get to see TY DUB(tyler for those who don't know, p.s. ask somebody) JOE FIZZLE(this nigga is back from florida and is still ruling at life) and to my surprise...dun dun dun...JOSH"i live in a cave in helotes" FEOLA!! i also got to see OCTOPI for the first time, that shit is amazing, no doubt!!
monday - kinda boring, played ball with NATE in 104 degree weather, that kinda shit doesnt usually work when you have a mop for hair and you're already dark as fuck!!!
today - NATE'S 14th BIRTHDAY (my boy is growing) and he's had the same girlfriend for about a month or two...GROWN ASS MAN...he made me type that!!!
dammit i feel gay for having such a long entry...what could i do to solve this...either post everyday or stop writing in it period...hmmm???

IT'S OVER!!

Thu, 27 May 2004 22:00:45 GMT

DAMN!! it's about damn time school is over!! today im officially a senior!! one more year to go, hopefully it'll be better than this one!! it's crazy multiple things are over in one day, i don't necessarily like it, but that's life, shit happens!! "if you can't duct it, fuck it"
well im not, or try really hard, not to mope around in my own sorrow!!
this summer is looking promising but so did a lot of things this year and we all know how that turned out...dammit, there i go again, ENOUGH!! hopefully i get to do all the things i want to do
first night of summer...

why does this still happen to me??

Tue, 25 May 2004 23:03:58 GMT

i've been home for a few hours already and have not been able to figure out why i cannot stop thinking of this person. thinking of her wouldn't be so bad if i could actually DO something about it but i can't. if i did, i think i would make an ass out of myself and i've been doing that my whole life. i've been wanting just to grab this girl, sit her down and pour my heart out to her (just like the movies) but unlike the movies i would not only get rejected but ruin a friendship (some friendship). im also realizing that i have only 2 days to talk/see this girl and after that it's all over!! im almost positive that this summer i won't get even get to speak to her and she'll most likely be out of my life forever, and that's not a good thing!! WHY DO I STILL FEEL LIKE THIS TOWARD HER?? I SHOULDN'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT, AND FOR THE MOST PART I DON'T, THINGS HAVE BEEN GOING GOOD WITH ME BUT THIS JUST POPPED OUT OF NO WERE, TOO WIERD FOR ME!!

MAYBE I'LL SEE YOU IN ANOTHER LIFETIME, MAYBE ILL SEE YOU AND THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT, MAYBE I WON'T AND THAT SCARES ME!!!

BORED AND LONELY!!

Sun, 23 May 2004 18:30:04 GMT

it's sunday afternoon and im waiting to see TERROR!!

http://www.lovecalculator.com/ - click this, it works wonders, especially when she doesn't care. this is a confidence boost!! haha do it, it's sooo lame!!

hey everyone and your mom better be here tonight...i just spent the last 30 minutes looking for this flyer but no dice soo here...

STRETCH ARMSTRONG
TERROR

TONIGHT
SIN 13
7:00 PM??
$10

FRONTLINE RECORDS will be in full effect!! woo woo!! GO and don't be lame!!

okay....

Sun, 23 May 2004 01:51:41 GMT

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

first round knockout archives!!!

Sun, 16 May 2004 18:22:48 GMT

OH THE GLORY DAYS!!!!!!!! MAN WE FUCKIN RULED!!

this is her...

Sun, 16 May 2004 02:19:23 GMT

here's to new beginnings, you fucks!!

Sat, 15 May 2004 23:00:35 GMT

all my friends are going death and breathing’s just a waste of breath
and hearing just makes me deaf and coming down leaves nothing left
the street is not mine just the stop sign we slit your cold, cold veins and let the loveage drain(they say, they say…) if you love something, set it free well I love life and I’m getting rid of me.

THIS IS A....

Tue, 11 May 2004 04:08:46 GMT

....SIKE!!

TO EVERYONE WHO DIDNT GET THE JOKE(READ PREVIOUS JOURNAL ENTRY)!!

MY LIFE RULES, AGAIN!!

Tue, 11 May 2004 03:43:34 GMT

man these last two days have been amazing!! first off, i met this super awesome/hot girl sunday at starbucks. she was so amazing that we went and saw MEAN GIRLS(her choice) after only one caramel frapachino(soy milk)and an awesome conversation about abortion laws! then we hung out at a local park and exchanged; numbers/screen names/livejournal names and my space names. then to top all that off i got to see her today and she's even more amazing than she was 24 hours ago...
i've also been reading and working out. im turning my shitty "im bored" time into "get smart and buff at the same time" time!! i rule!!
...sounds good huh? yeah it only took 5 minutes to make up, except for the reading and working out part, that's completely true!!

p.s. collect vinyl or sell it to me!!

breathing's just a waste of breath

Mon, 10 May 2004 02:15:57 GMT

do you ever wonder what it woulda been like to this day? cause i sure do. sometimes it doesnt phase me, and other times it kills me. rad.

reminder: the fun and games have stayed the same but i still miss those times. those times when my heart was full, but so was my pocket. when at the end of the "end" i was still $20 richer but then lose it all to the growth of my record collection. the brotherhood is still there, but now there's permanent damage to the heart, at the hands of what your friends like to call a "tourist".

collecting records is simply the funnest thing ever. i added some awesome stuff tonight:
striking distance - fuse is lit - red/orange cow pattern limited to 600
hope conspiracy - file 03 - maroon limited to 500
sworn in - s/t - red/black limited to 600

who cares?

how was your weekend call me/IM me, let me know!!